I hate feeling powerless. I hate knowing someone is hurting and there is NOTHING you can do but pray about it. I hate even more, knowing that someone is hurting and it in some way has to do with you, but you still can't do anything about it. You just have to let things play out how they will and hope for the best. Any way you want to look at it, someone is going to get hurt, and I am powerless to stop it.
You want someone to be happy, but when a situation is examined, you may see that the happiness they have is only on the surface. Then you wonder, if they make a choice that negatively impacts you for the sake of that surface happiness, what's going to happen when their world comes crashing down around them? You know others are going to be hurt too, when that happens, and you are powerless to stop it. You just have to let things play out how they will and hope for the best. Any way you look at it, someone will get hurt. Perhaps multiple someone's will get hurt. You are powerless to stop it.
Fate doesn't let you decide who gets hurt and who is spared. Fate provides you with tools to make others think, but it doesn't provide you with that proverbial light bulb to stick over someone's head that will magically light up when the person you don't want to see hurt actually listens to you and the light bulb comes on because they now know what they have to do. Even when you are right, you might get hurt, and you are for the most part, powerless to stop it.
Worse yet is when children are involved. Doesn't matter who's children they are. When children are hurt, it is a sin. Children shouldn't have to be hurt because of decisions adults have to make. In most cases, if adults would learn to set aside their differences, children wouldn't have to be hurt. But it happens. More often than not. Every day. Several times a day. And you are powerless to stop it.
I don't want power to stop everything. I just want the power to protect myself, my feelings, my heart, and my children, their feelings, and their hearts. They don't deserve to be hurt because other people are jealous, insecure, and somewhat selfish. I try to exercise power over these things, but at a certain point, the power no longer lies with me. It lies with someone else. And I am powerless to stop the hurt. I hope and pray that someone who does have the power intervenes, and gives us all a happy ending.
